Amanda..how you doin

theres either alot of rotten eggs or baby birds out there...

its official.

i am in love.

(it is that time of year after all. )

and i love this love because it will never happen.

i am able to love from afar. and i am unconditionally loved in return.

but at the end of the day, it is a great deal of hurt to know that i cant be with them. 

but i can watch, and fantasize, and admire. 

ive learned so much from this one person in 2 years than i have from anyone else in 20. 

he spins my emotions outta control. but mostly, he makes me happy. 

and that, right now, is all i can ask for.

WELL. THIS IS THE NEW COVER FOR PANIC'S SOPHOMORE RELEASE
LOVE IT.
3*25*08

Ive decided im going to use this journal more often thruout 2008. Basically because I dont wanna look back and have it be all celeb gossip or something. So. Along with just about every other person, one of my resolutions is to tone up and eat healthier. BE HEALTHY. ~ more natural~Stop eating junk. maYBE take a yoga/pilates class or something. So far, its been tough. But i like Sunday afternoons. I can relax. So, (btw i say so alot, get used to it) im trying to drink some tea and honey and nibble saltine crackers as a lite lunch.




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Listening to Fall of Troy,Envy on the Coast , and Forgive Durden.

"...She exits her gold chariot one pump at a time."

3/25/08- I am waay too excited for this. But I am gonna be so crushed. And then im gonna make excuses for them. NO. What am i saying? Its gonna be fucking great. Just like Viva! was and i didnt give it a thorough listen. Once i did i was totally feeling it.

working.working.working. its driving me nuts not being able to pick something career wise. I fully blame this on me being a gemini. its all in the stars. so im believing that what im set out to do will come to me in the stars? i dont know what the fuck im typing

So miss Ashlee died her hair red, huh? It perrrty i guess. shes still hottest as a blonde unfortunately. but would look better if she went back to that dark 'do she had in the beginning, but wait. arent they supposed to change and reinvent?


heychris is on tour again. (random spurts a-coming) jared letos looking creeepy. can someone update me on brit, i havent paid attention since they let her out of the hospital. Right now i hate Melissa. Im itching to go to a concert. Like every time i hear music, my blood jumps with the beat. My little sister somehow showed my mom who Jeffree Star is/was. she lol'd and said why is he trying to be famous.

well. thats all for now.

 

(just posting these, for my own use) 
ps.its sooooo good!!!


ONE AND ONLY 

I'm head over
 heels for someone I
that I really cant' deal with
I wanna block her from my mind
but I really can't do it
I tell myself this the last time
Ima let her do this to me
Whenever we do spend time I realize
that I can't get enough of you.

(Bridge)
Wipe that smile off your f**king face,
[then i say to u]
Wipe that smile off your face.
[then i say to u]
Wipe that smile off your f**king face,
[then i say to u]
Wipe that smile off your face.

(Chorus)
To be despised, to be loved.
To be dreamt of, to be sought.
On the inside I don't care
Right in the middle,
I'm right in the middle
To be despised, to be loved.
To be dreamt of, to be sought.
On the inside I don't care
Be my unholy, my one and my only.

(Verse 2)
I wear scarves and hoods cause it's the only poker face that I've got left
And everything I love about you is a mess
Smash the mirror and break the palm reader's hands
I want to be better than I am.

(Bridge)
Wipe that smile off your f**king face,
[then i say to u]
Wipe that smile off your face.


[then i say to u]
Wipe that smile off your f**king face,
[then i say to u]
Wipe that smile off your face.

(Chorus)
To be despised, to be loved.
To be dreamt of, to be sought.
On the inside of I don't care
Right in the middle,
I'm right in the middle
To be despised, to be loved.
To be dreamt of, to be sought.
On the inside of I don't care
Be my unholy, my one and my only.

(Verse 3)
Girl just look what you done,
How could you do this to me?
I gotta put my foot down,
I can't let you do this to me.
I can't forget those good old times,
and all those things you were doing to me.
I wanna hit that one more time,
I'm in love with what you're doin to me.
Ima say it loud
right now lets f**k in this crowd
Why we arguin'?
I thought me and you were suposta be friends.
Let's chill for a minute,
Better yet, we needta heal for a minute.
Baby, put down the knife,
sometime I wanna save your life...[but I'm coool]

(Chorus)
To be despised, to be loved.
To be dreamt of, to be sought.
On the inside I don't care
Right in the middle,
I'm right in the middle
To be despised, to be loved.
To be dreamt of, to be sought.
On the inside I don't care
Be my unholy, my one and my only

 i need some new friends. 
preferrably some who are into the same music i am. 
(can u say Honda Civic 08)
and ones who dont still go to house/keg parties 
im not in high school anymore.

like, do i send out applications or post fliers?
maybe i should hold auditons? 

so PW has a new blogspot...ummm meelikey??
great..just what i need to do, stalk him even more. 

i need glasses. oooooh i hope i dont look like a four eyed freak.

.pretty odd. 
3/25/08

WELL. GUESS WHAT I FINALLY SAW?!

 

***********VERDICT************* OMG i fucking loved it. i was skeptical about it at first seeing as how my sister got knocked up at that age. BUT ELLEN PAGE was amazing. And i never got the appeal of jen garner, but i love jason bateman. EXPEPT this is the first movie where i really loved her and (EW pedo) hated him in this one.  ALSO michael cera is gooood.... even though his name is michael. and for some reason i love the name juno. i wanna name something juno. ok my journal is officially called juno. -get with it. or get over it.-

So Im over at icecreamhdaches and I unfortunately came across a list some shitty person with no soul made

OMG THIS MAN AINT UGLY.
WE COULD ALL AFFORD TO TONE UP.
DIAFFFFFF FOR REALLLLZ
ok
happy new year

ALTHOUGH, I DO THINK PATRICK SHOULD WRITE SOME SONGS Y/Y